Love Note

I am reposting this in honor of my Twentieth Wedding Aniversary today.

He is my partner, my lover, my best friend. I never imagined a life filled with so much love, passion and friendship. We've had our struggles. The fights. The resentments and the infidelities. We have three beautiful children that have grown into amazing people and a future of blessings awaiting our arrival.
I have been married over half my life now, we've grown-up together and if I had to do it over again...

I would in a New York Minute.


Morgan, Will you marry me?



Hello my darling dear,
I've been thinking a lot about you since you were in the hospital. I want you to know how much I love you and how important you are to me. I humbly ask your forgiveness for my failings as a wife. They become more aparent to me as the years go by, and it is a dissapointment to me that I am not more of what you deserve in a partner, a lover and a friend.
I have, in the past few years, come to know how good you are to me in every way. I think you are brave and thoughtful. I think you are smart and funny and strong. Words just aren't enough to tell you the things I love about who you are.
I know it sounds silly, but the more I love you the more I feel afraid. Every year I become more you, so that we are becomming one person, and that is such a stability and peace in my life, just like my relationship with God. So the more I love, the more I'm afraid you will see my weaknesses and leave or by the power of God be taken away.
I don't mean to ramble. It just seems that to say "I love you" doesn't do my heart justice. You are my life, you are my breath and truely, you are my bread. When I was younger I never thought I would be so taken care of and so loved. It is a miricle of the Holy Spirit and God's grace and mercy. I can never thank Him enough for giving me you, or really, giving me "us".
Thank you for loving me when I don't deserve it and for being patient whith me when it hurts you. Thank you for loving our children and providing for our every need with hard work and dedication. Thank you for sticking with your Christian principles even when you didn't want to in the worst way. Thank you for being an example. Thank you for just being you, you are always enough and all I need.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I want to be what you need too. I want to be whatever you desire, I want you to be happy and filled and satisfied beyond your expectations. I want you to grow and learn and love yourself deeply. I want the Spirit to bless you every day in all the little ways that make such a difference. I want to be with you in heaven and never know what it means to be separated. I want to grow old with you and hold your hand as we walk across the parking lot so we both don't fall over. I want to watch you loving our grandchildren and bouncing them on your knee. I want to have a honeymoon with you every year and celebrate that miricle day when God's wisdom prevailed and we said "I do", even when, at the time, we didn't. I want to lay in the grass and look at cloud shapes and talk about everything. I want to sit together and swing in the shade of the summer breeze and not talk at all. I want to hear you snore every night. I want to see you walk down the isle with Chance crying your eyes out, because I know you will. I want to see you finally bond with Zach and build, for his sake, a great relationship with him so he will be just as good of a husband as you are. I want to never forget what your voice sounds like when you sing in church. I want you to wake up in the morning and wistle, even though you know I'm not a morning person.
There are so many things, and so few words... I wish you could hold my heart in your chest for just a minute, so that you could feel the depth of love and passion my being holds for you. Then you would understand, and know everything about me and you and us.
What more can I say?

I love you.


"You're my bread, when I'm hungry. You're my shelter in troubled winds. You're my anchor in life's ocean, But most of all... You're my best friend."

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