Maybe today, but not tommorrow...
"Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood and
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked and
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved and for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated and
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved and for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
When will you stop leaving baby?
When will I stop deserting you baby?
When will I start staying with myself?
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally and
How these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved and for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
So unsexy"
Alanis Morissette
posted by The Paradoxical Pariah at 12:15 PM
2 Comments:
Wow.. I recite that song in my head quite often! I wonder if we do it for the same reasons.. I thought I was the only person out there..
This is actually one of my favorite Alanis songs. There was a time in my life that I completely identified with her anger and her music spoke to me.
This song I love in particular because of the phrasing and how she choses to express her feelings of frustration. She is not self-pitying or self depracating.
"I can feel so unsexy for someone so BEAUTIFUL..."
I love that she acknowledges feelings of inferiority that we all have, without believing the "feeling" to be true.
It was a good lesson for me. :)
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