Thursday, October 27, 2005

The Life of Riely

I can hear the wispers of a thousand memories
in the waves of the sea
sitting on a blanket under the moon
I recall most vividly
our conversation about Life,
about Loss,
about Love.


"Have you ever been in Love", timidly and woefuly
words spilled and dripped with an irritating cadence
onto my lap, down my leg and into my left shoe
I spoke with lips silent and eyes laughing
ruefully

I answered finaly in my own sweet time
years and and age ago when I wore that blue dress
"How Freudian." I said "For humanity to look to some
egalitarian epiphany. Some long ago
tribal right of passage into adulthood
like a man wearing a fedora."

It's twenty years hence that age and I have sewn
the seeds of birth and death and day to day
and hour to hour watching you wanting me
to wear again that blue dress and so I smile
wide and strong and clear in the moonlight

"It's not being in love that changes us" I sigh
and roll over with my nose on your chin
feeling the prickle of your beard and lifting a hand
to carress your face, "It's the act of loving."

And I can hear the wispers of a thousand memories
in the Life of you and me.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Meme

I have never been too tempted to engage in Meme, but this was very interesting. As a writer and a self-proclaimed word whore, I couldn't resist.
I got this one from Jill over atWrites Like She Talks

So, here was the meme:

1. Take first five novels from your bookshelf.
2. Book 1 -- first sentence
3. Book 2 -- last sentence on page 50
4. Book 3 -- second sentence on page 100
5. Book 4 -- next to the last sentence on page 150
6. Book 5 -- final sentence of the book
7. Make the five sentences into a paragraph.
8. Feel free to "cheat" to make it a better paragraph.
9. Name your sources
10.Post to your blog.

And here are my results:

The Salinas Valley is in Northern California. He stood up tall, square, bulky in his fur, looking anxiously down over the fields, and presently he saw them coming. I begin to picture them all, living and dead, gathered together for one night in an ampitheater, or armory, or some vast silvery ballroom where they have come to remove their bow-ties, to hang up their red jackets and aprons, and now they are having a cigarette or dancing with eachother, turning slowly in one another's arms to a five piece, rental band. This happened in the days of the Democracy. And I finally began like this: When I stepped out into the bright sunlight from the darkness of the movie house, I had only two things on my mind: Paul Newman and a ride home...



Book 1. East of Eden; John Steinbeck
Book 2. Five great dialogues; Plato
Book 3. The Forsyte Saga; John Galsworthy
Book 4. Sailing around the Room; Billy Collins
Book 5. The Outsiders; S.E. Hinton

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

I carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


e.e. cummings

Meaness

We celebrate the Dawn with the abandon of vigor
and birth explodes on the scene in a mirad of color
blinding humanity with enigmatic suspense
in the future
in the springtime
in the ignorance of youth.

We reverently, grudgingly pay homage to the Night
sleepless we come in the blackness of Dracula's cloak
wrapping it's terrible comfort about us
looking for the past
yearning for the past
eulogizing the past.

But the Noon-time, the Noon-time, no one embraces the Noon-time
heat and brightness and transition like bubbles floating
popping in an instant our dreams gone forever before we know
the middle
the average
the mean.

It's Mid-life now that I love, that golden wrapped present
God graciously gives at just the right hour
the Glorious gift of Meantime akin to the second half of our favorite sandwich
anticipating the satisfaction that follows
Past
Future
Now.

Monday, October 24, 2005

Nutshells

A fracture has occurred.
Or rather you wish me to believe it's so.
That we are never really the people we think we are
is not such an amazing comentary on life.
Unless you read the TIMES.

I won't say that I'm left or right
in the middle is boring, but what else will you hear
all those moments that burst forth and fizzle
in the grayness of simply living.

So many conversations we could be having
Ideas floating, coaxing, swallowing hard
that jagged little pill of envy when you finaly learn
the truth is passing you on the street everyday
in the middle of Autumn while the ducks fly overhead.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

The Highwayman

PART ONE

I

THE wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees,
The moon was a ghostly galleon tossed upon clondy seas,
The road was a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moor,
And the highwayman came riding—
Riding—riding—
The highwayman came riding, up to the old inn-door.

II

He'd a French cocked-hat on his forehead, a bunch of lace at his chin,
A coat of the claret velvet, and breeches of brown doe-skin;
They fitted with never a wrinkle: his boots were up to the thigh!
And he rode with a jewelled twinkle,
His pistol butts a-twinkle,
His rapier hilt a-twinkle, under the jewelled sky.

III

Over the cobbles he clattered and clashed in the dark inn-yard,
And he tapped with his whip on the shuters, but all was locked and barred;
He whistled a tune to the window, and who should be waiting there
But the landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Bess, the landlord's daughter,
Plaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair.

IV

And dark in the dark old inn-yard a stable-wicket creaked
Where Tim the ostler listened; his face was white and peaked;
His eyes were hollows of madness, his hair like mouldy hay,
But he loved the landlord's daughter,
The landlord's red-lipped daughter,
Dumb as a dog he listened, and he heard the robber say—

V

"One kiss, my bonny sweetheart, I'm after a prize to-night,
But I shall be back with the yellow gold before the morning light;
Yet, if they press me sharply, and harry me through the day,
Then look for me by moonlight,
Watch for me by moonlight,
I'll come to thee by moonlight, though hell should bar the way."

VI

He rose upright in the stirrups; he scarce could reach her hand,
But she loosened her hair i' the casement! His face burnt like a brand
As the black cascade of perfume came tumbling over his breast;
And he kissed its waves in the moonlight,
(Oh, sweet, black waves in the moonlight!)
Then he tugged at his rein in the moonliglt, and galloped away to the West.



PART TWO

I

He did not come in the dawning; he did not come at noon;
And out o' the tawny sunset, before the rise o' the moon,
When the road was a gypsy's ribbon, looping the purple moor,
A red-coat troop came marching—
Marching—marching—
King George's men came matching, up to the old inn-door.

II

They said no word to the landlord, they drank his ale instead,
But they gagged his daughter and bound her to the foot of her narrow bed;
Two of them knelt at her casement, with muskets at their side!
There was death at every window;
And hell at one dark window;
For Bess could see, through her casement, the road that he would ride.

III

They had tied her up to attention, with many a sniggering jest;
They had bound a musket beside her, with the barrel beneath her breast!
"Now, keep good watch!" and they kissed her.
She heard the dead man say—
Look for me by moonlight;
Watch for me by moonlight;
I'll come to thee by moonlight, though hell should bar the way!

IV

She twisted her hands behind her; but all the knots held good!
She writhed her hands till her fingers were wet with sweat or blood!
They stretched and strained in the darkness, and the hours crawled by like years,
Till, now, on the stroke of midnight,
Cold, on the stroke of midnight,
The tip of one finger touched it! The trigger at least was hers!

V

The tip of one finger touched it; she strove no more for the rest!
Up, she stood up to attention, with the barrel beneath her breast,
She would not risk their hearing; she would not strive again;
For the road lay bare in the moonlight;
Blank and bare in the moonlight;
And the blood of her veins in the moonlight throbbed to her love's refrain .

VI

Tlot-tlot; tlot-tlot! Had they heard it? The horse-hoofs ringing clear;
Tlot-tlot, tlot-tlot, in the distance? Were they deaf that they did not hear?
Down the ribbon of moonlight, over the brow of the hill,
The highwayman came riding,
Riding, riding!
The red-coats looked to their priming! She stood up, straight and still!

VII

Tlot-tlot, in the frosty silence! Tlot-tlot, in the echoing night!
Nearer he came and nearer! Her face was like a light!
Her eyes grew wide for a moment; she drew one last deep breath,
Then her finger moved in the moonlight,
Her musket shattered the moonlight,
Shattered her breast in the moonlight and warned him—with her death.

VIII

He turned; he spurred to the West; he did not know who stood
Bowed, with her head o'er the musket, drenched with her own red blood!
Not till the dawn he heard it, his face grew grey to hear
How Bess, the landlord's daughter,
The landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Had watched for her love in the moonlight, and died in the darkness there.

IX

Back, he spurred like a madman, shrieking a curse to the sky,
With the white road smoking behind him and his rapier brandished high!
Blood-red were his spurs i' the golden noon; wine-red was his velvet coat,
When they shot him down on the highway,
Down like a dog on the highway,
And he lay in his blood on the highway, with the bunch of lace at his throat.

* * * * * *

X

And still of a winter's night, they say, when the wind is in the trees,
When the moon is a ghostly galleon tossed upon cloudy seas,
When the road is a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moor,
A highwayman comes riding—
Riding—riding—
A highwayman comes riding, up to the old inn-door.

XI

Over the cobbles he clatters and clangs in the dark inn-yard;
He taps with his whip on the shutters, but all is locked and barred;
He whistles a tune to the window, and who should be waiting there
But the landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Bess, the landlord's daughter,
Plaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair.


Alfred Noyes

Sunday, October 16, 2005

The Pulse of a New Begining

The elusiveness in your eyes is what makes me chase you
in my pajamas and down Columbus Avenue
stopping only briefly for a latte and an anonymous kiss.

It's simply the way you stand there,
with your hands behind your back.
The only illumination resting in your disheveled hair
is the one coming from the BAR sign flickering
it's translucent light filling the scene
like a can of cheap tuna just opened first thing in the morning.

You know the rythm that haunts your dreams
is coming for you and drawing ever near.
The rythm that seemingly escapes those that seek your presence.
The beat.

The Beat.

Stick out your chin and be casual.
Make them feel the complacency you only pretend
to introduce to your friends, if you can call them that.
Not quite knowing drives you farther and farther west.
West young man, "On the Road".

It's the picture of you I carry in my heart's mind,
the one in which you are not smiling,
and the elusiveness of your eyes causes me to chase you
in my pajamas and down Columbus Avenue.






JustaboutJack